I Love Buffy

[nvrbnkisst]

So, I'm working on quite a few vids lately. (sometimes not a good thing when it comes to getting anything finished lol)

But there has been a lot of discussion lately about Buffy's depression in season six.

Buffy in season six is MY HERO. Because, like her, I've dealt with depression and/or depressing times in my life. I don't like admitting it publicly, and that's something I can relate to Buffy with. Because she has shame. Shame of what she's feeling or can't feel or what she's supposed to feel.

It isn't something I talk to a lot of people about. But it's been discussed in my f-list a lot, and just knowing there are people out there who have the courage to discuss not only the matter of depression but share personally about it as well makes me hopeful.

And I love the portrayal of it in Buffy. She comes through eventually, she still fights the good fight, she still loves her sister and her friends and she makes mistakes, god knows we all do, but it makes me love her so much more. 

I heard this song not too long ago and thought it was the perfect tone for everything Buffy endured in season six.
The song is edited and the video itself is quite short but I hope you enjoy.

Vidders Note: In the making of this vid I found quite a few parallels in the direction of shots filmed at the beginning and end of this season. Buffy enters the World lost and confused and comes out hopeful. You'll see what I'm talking about at the end of the video.

And HEY! It's my first video of 2011. WOOT :)

Comments

[moscow-watcher.livejournal.com]

Terrific vid - heartbreaking yet hopeful. I love the rhythm of editing that flows along the music.

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

heartbreaking yet hopeful

Thank you!

[aerintine.livejournal.com]

I just woke up and watched this first thing, and HOLY. MOLY. Starting out my day crying profusely with love - not too shabby a beginning. :) This is stunning and your heart is amazing. Everything that comes from your brain leaves me in awe! I want to hug you so hard right now. Your love for Buffy is inspiring. WELL DONE.

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

SOoooo. I was awake when you texted me. In fact I didn't fall asleep until 8am. But I was laying in bed, and I knew I had to try to sleep in order to be at all coherent for work. So yeah.

I LOVE YOU AND I WANT TO HUG YOU TOO!
*misses her Jamie*

YOUR HEART IS AMAZING!

[blackfrancine.livejournal.com]

Oh my gosh. This is fantastic. I actually gasped at the scene of Buffy grasping the ghost/demon in Afterlife, and it evaporating in her hand. Gah! That's such a potent image and I would never have noticed it if not for this vid.

And the whole thing is just lovely. My throat is now all closed up from wanting to cry. Dammit. You capture the mood perfectly, down to that tentative optimism at the end of the season. Beautiful.

Btw, I've watched it 3 times already.

And--as a sidenote--I can't tell you how giddy it makes me to look at my friends list, and see the title "I Love Buffy." It does my heart good. ♥

[ever-neutral.livejournal.com]

I actually gasped at the scene of Buffy grasping the ghost/demon in Afterlife, and it evaporating in her hand. Gah! That's such a potent image

WHAT YOU SAID. ALDFJAS;LF

[blueteainfusion.livejournal.com]

I actually gasped at the scene of Buffy grasping the ghost/demon in Afterlife, and it evaporating in her hand. Gah! That's such a potent image and I would never have noticed it if not for this vid.

Yeah, I feel the same way. But what I noticed was "St. Theresa of Avila in Ecstasy" vs. Winged!Buffy. Stunning visual and unexpected connection. Absolutely love it.

You love Buffy and so do all of us!

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

I WAS HOPING SOMEONE WOULD NOTICE THAT!

Like I've mentioned in other comments, the filming and connectivity of this season with all Buffy's going through is so subtle yet poignant.

Another image I had wanted to include (but didn't cause of the quality of the clip I had) was the very beginning of OMWF. Buffy is sitting in the magic box drawing and at first glance it just looks like this lead covered page, but then you notice this box of light she's left unfilled with pencil and it looks like this darkness is overwhelming this little light space. And it's so meaningful! She's been brought from the light back into darkness and it's suffocating her.

I may be just finding meaning where there's actually nothing significant, but it feels significant to me :)

Thank you!

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

Oh my gosh. This is fantastic. I actually gasped at the scene of Buffy grasping the ghost/demon in Afterlife, and it evaporating in her hand. Gah! That's such a potent image and I would never have noticed it if not for this vid

In the making of this video I found SO SO many significant yet subtle images relating to everything Buffy was going through. The filming of this season was absolutely stunning and meaningful.

And--as a sidenote--I can't tell you how giddy it makes me to look at my friends list, and see the title "I Love Buffy." It does my heart good

From now on ALL OF MY POSTS WILL BE TITLED THIS FOR SURE!

[louise39.livejournal.com]

Lovely. You picked so many shots of an unhappy Buffy fighting and 'going through the motions' and coming through and I liked the soft sound of the music and the blending.

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

Thank you! Buffy just breaks me this season and I LOVE HER!

[angearia.livejournal.com]

It's STUNNING to me how you can make vids, so many, and they each feel so different and new.

Anne, this shattered me. I'm crying here after watching it four times again and again. The clips you chose were so resonant, like Blackfrancine said the one where she tries to grasp the ghost, and the one that destroyed me on the fourth time through was when she glanced up at Giles while he was hugging her and she looked so hopeful. It just breaks me. How she feels so alone, so lost, so tired, then to see her FIGHT back. And Dawnie, oh Dawnie.

This is so beautiful.

*goes back to sobbing in a good way*

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

It's STUNNING to me how you can make vids, so many, and they each feel so different and new.

THANK YOU! I love vidding so I doubt I'll ever stop but this is one thing about vidding the same fandom that makes me nervous. The thought that eventually everything I make will be just be a copy of something I or someone else has already done.

I LOVE YOU!
*goes back to sobbing in a good way*
Tears were def shed in the making of this video. That look she gives her friends after killing the demon in 'Normal Again' that looks that says 'I messed up and I'm SO sorry, I don't deserve forgiveness' just breaks my heart! She is SO just asking for understanding there and they just don't and OMG my heart!

[eilowyn.livejournal.com]

I'm crying in the middle of the student lounge right now, and people are staring. This is an amazing, stunning vid, and an important statement about Buffy and season 6. When this is the journey we're shown in season 6, I don't know how people can hate it or Buffy. It is beyond me, and you illustrate that journey so well in this vid. The clips and scenes you put to the beat of the music are movements in themselves, and like Emmie said, they're resonant with meaning because of the emotion you give them.

2011 is off to an amazing start.

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

I don't know how people can hate it or Buffy

If anything it makes her MORE relatable. No one can be the hero all the time. No one. She's not only REAL this season but she's just laid bare and no one see's it. This woman breaks my heart and then turns around and picks up the pieces.

Buffy haters better recognize.

[ceciliaj.livejournal.com]

Oh my God, you just made me cry. Your vids are awesome.

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

*hands you a tissue*

Thank you!! Buffy fills my heart with love and I can't help but make videos to express it.

[gabrielleabelle.livejournal.com]

This is fantastic. Thanks for it.

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

thank you!!

[lostboy-lj.livejournal.com]

Fantastic!

Great images, great storytelling, brilliant choice of music, beautiful timing.

I think this is my favorite one of yours so far.

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

WOW! Thank you so much!!

I think this is my favorite one of yours so far.

Thank you!! ♥

[amyxaphania.livejournal.com]

Beautiful vid!

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

thank you so much!! :D

[devilscrayon.livejournal.com]

Absolutely beautiful. What a perfect representation of season six.

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

[passionrlsusall.livejournal.com]

Good pacing and feeling. I feel like I'll have to watch it several times to realize all the bits that make it up.

[passionrlsusall.livejournal.com]

Btw, who does that song (and what is the title)?

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

thank you so much!

The song is 'So Cold' by Ben Cocks.

[agnes-bean.livejournal.com]

Oh, this is lovely. It really captures both Buffy's struggle and her strength pretty perfectly.

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

Thank you!
Buffy's strength makes my heart burst sometimes.

[ever-neutral.livejournal.com]

INCOHERENT. GIRL WHAT DO YOU DO TO ME. I CAN'T.



I will say that the song choice is absolutely brilliant and your vid broke my heart and put it back together again. Thank you. ♥

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

I was a little worried about the song choice. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the tone, but the full version is about a breakup. And I was hoping I could change it enough to make it significant for Buffy this season.

YOUR INCOHERENTNESS MAKES MY HEART SING ♥

[sarian71]

Hi! Your vids are amazing! And this one? Pure art. Perfect union of music and video, which manages to capture the essence of Buffy's character and her struggle in S6 perfectly. I really love the way this video evokes emotional response from us viewers.

*claps hands*

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

I really love the way this video evokes emotional response from us viewers.

I love that fact that it does too :)

[bloodypoetry.livejournal.com]

That was beautiful, thank you for making it.

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

Thank you ♥

[littleotter73]

Umm. I am new to you. This was... so heart wrenching and so beautiful. I am in awe and very nearly speechless. I loved the progression from despair to drawing on her strength despite feeling so lost to hope. You captured Buffy's journey perfectly. I absolutely loved it. This is a masterpiece!

Thank you for sharing. I need some time to recover as it hit home with me on several counts.

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

I loved the progression from despair to drawing on her strength despite feeling so lost to hope. You captured Buffy's journey perfectly. I absolutely loved it. This is a masterpiece!

The response this video has had just makes me want to jump with joy! Buffy is such a beautiful character and someone to whom I look up to an relate to. I'm glad I could do her and this season justice :)

Thanks so much!

[maddie2927.livejournal.com]

OH MY GOD HOW DID I EVEN MISS THIS?! I'm so upset that I missed this on my flist and didn't watch it within .8 seconds of its posting. I really need to learn to stalk you more. And I completely agree with what Emmie said, that you keep posting such beautiful resonant meaningful videos and they all manage to have a different feel and theme. And it's such a coincidence that I notice this today, because last night I spent about a half hour just going through your videos one by one on youtube sitting there crying, because honestly I don't know how you do it. They're all just gorgeous and perfect and please never stop because your videos, for me, are like everything wonderful in fandom. all the beauty and the poignancy of the relationships and the characters, still with the technical aspect of the visuals. AND YOUR MUSIC, DUDE. YOUR MUSIC. almost every time you post a video I get excited for the video but I also get excited because there's going to be a new song for me to be obsessed with. And now I've been rambling and I'm not sure how to end this because I've been up for about 30 hours, but long story short, I LOVE YOU. YOU'RE AWESOME. THANKSBYE.

OH ALSO PS I LOVE BUFFY TOO =)

[angearia.livejournal.com]

AND YOUR MUSIC, DUDE. YOUR MUSIC. almost every time you post a video I get excited for the video but I also get excited because there's going to be a new song for me to be obsessed with.

THIS THIS THIS

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

YOU FILL MY HEART WITH JOY EMMIE!!!

I'm going to have to make you a mix now ♥

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

MAKE ME CRY WHY DON'T YOU!

Halfway through reading your response I just burst into tears (happy tears of course :))

YOU LIKE MY MUSIC!?
YOU ARE MADE OF EVERYTHING THAT WINS EVER!

Music is honestly what inspires me, and sometimes certain songs don't even resonate with BtVS for me at first listen, but if I really like the song, I make it fit lol. I LOVE LOVE LOVE making videos but my favorite part and the part that usually starts it all is the song edit. EDITING SONGS IS SO FUN! :D

AND 30 HOURS GIRL?
I've had insomnia most of my life, so yeah, no fun.

I LOVE YOU. YOU'RE AWESOME. THANKSBYE.

I LOVE YOU AND YOU'RE AWESOME! ♥

[dampersnspoons.livejournal.com]

I have watched this over and over, FYI.

<3 <3

[nvrbnkisst.livejournal.com]

I ♥ you :)